my pathetic post.

As for now, you should know that im on my final year of attachments, aka called the PRCP. I dont really nag about the staffs nor patients until today. For the six weeks of attachment, i dont have problems working with the staffs. Be it an old, experienced, fierce or sarcastic person. However, im really disappointed with what happened during my shift today.

There was this staff ( whom i worked with today) was very 'popular' among the students. They already told me alot of things about her. and to that i have to agree! Ive been working with her for the last few days and ive noticed that she never guide students at all. She will just give you 1 case, then thats your own problem and she's nowhere out to be seen. Even when showing her my piece of damn sample report writing, she only glances to it and asked me write, while after writing, THEN she will say its wrong -.-. True enough, im jealous by the fact other students in my shift were working side by side with their staff! .. while im on my own working world. True enough i should be asking to be pro active, and i did all that, but im getting ignored! like dayummmmm!

So early in the morning, i told her im taking 3 cases which were the first three of my team, and she went 'ok ok whatever you want laa~'. So my these 3 cases were going for op, discharged and admission. As i was almost done with my admission and was about to write my report writing, i discovered that she wrote for me already. Thanks, thats my case! i know i should be grateful for her helping me, but i already did everything..call doctor, print ot chit yada yada yada..

Seriously, there's not much communication between us. Even the EN was complaining about this SN to me, but what can i do? im just a student.

I know that morning shift was a busy day. Maybe she's busy. Maybe thats her character. But at least acknowledge me that im in that team. and another thing is, a patient came back from ot as we were about to pass report to the next shift. No one was in the ward ( God knows where they went) when only me and another staff (from other team) received the patient. Then the staff handled the post op review while i helped the patient with the changing and para (isnt that what the student always do?). i never listen to the post op review at all! thinking that my staff was too busy to take this patient case, i helped her to call the doctor to do post op review, and thats it! i hvn even sort out everything and its our turn to pass report. How awesome you tell me! and thanks staff, she pointed finger at me. She scolded me in front of all the afternoon staffs until one staff said "you pass report first, later then you teach her la". So at that moment i went blank and start to think.." so this become my case now....?"

Maybe this post is redundant afterall. I know it was partly my fault. but maybe venting out my anger here is better than to someone? Honestly speaking, i am tooo tired and maybe thats the reason im being wayy too sensitive. ROFL yes nadiah also have emotion dude! lol. i can feel its just not the nadiah as for now. You know when stress really strike you up, just like "a little girl who hasnt study anything for tml test", thats what im feeling right now..the nervousness and stress are THATTT MUCHHH!!!!!!! thanks blog for listening to me:)